Tom Aiasicca
I appreciate your kind words. There seems to be a misunderstanding regarding property of mine. James, you allowed me to store my ham radio antennas in your basement in Oakland, and a few computers, and a cable TV box, and an Alesis Midi DataDrive unit that I bought for my computer. It had a 3 1/2 inch floppy drive on it. It worked wonders when used to format disks that refused to be formatted on a standard computer. It had a stronger magnetic presence on the disk or something. There were those objects there. When we spoke last, I asked you about them, and you said to me that you had used them to get money to survive because you were living in a shelter, and that you had gone through a period of no income and needed to do it. I have never sold anything that belonged to someone else, be it at a pawn shop, stranger, or friend. I was really shocked when you admitted it so openly to me, it really shocked me, but I just let it go. It was gone, and there was nothing I could do about it. That is the reason I mentioned it. I would not have just assumed that you did that with my equipment, and to be honest, it is NOT in your character or personality to that to anyone. It just does not seem like you to do that. The James I knew would NEVER do that to anyone, that is why it was so shocking for me to hear you say it to me without a care in the world. It was not in character for you, not at all, but what could I do when you were telling me this? First I get the disappointing news that you are HIV positive. I was SO upset about that. Why? Because I gave my best years, my 20's to you! I dedicated myself to you. I took you to college to English classes, I wrote your Resume for you, and we even had a phone line installed in my mom's house so that people could call and I would answer it like I was a business..... your former employer! That was how we were able to get you a job, because Norma would not confirm your employment. We tried a few jobs, and she denied you having worked there. I put in the telephone line, wrote your resume and cover letter, and acted as your former employer, giving you the opportunity to get started in a very competitive market. It was sad that John was able to get hired on at Pauls, but I was not. That was difficult for me at the time. Then in Sacramento, John lied to the people at the SmokeTree Apartments, telling them that the only reason we wanted to get out of the lease was because we had a fight. He has done so many things to hurt us, and when you went on your way, he took so much pleasure in the fact that you were no longer around. He tried to say terrible, horrible disparaging remarks about you, but I told him that he would have to leave. He locked himself into the bathroom, opened the window, and started shouting evil things about you and I. I told him to open the door, but he would not. After an hour of this, I had to break the door down. Wood shot up in my eye, and he said, "Good, I hope it blinds you!"
I guess you can see WHY I cannot talk to him! If you knew the things he wanted to do against you, you would not believe it! That is why he ended up with schizophrenia. The last time I saw him was by accident. He was in the muni underground in San Francisco. He started freaking out, yelling, "They are all Looking at me! They want to hurt me!" I had to calm him down and get him relaxed, telling him that I was there and that I would not let anyone hurt him. He insisted that I visit his apartment. I did, and then he would not let me leave! He took me into his bedroom, showed me that he had all these bottles of meds for his mental condition, and he dumped them all into the toilet! He said he did not need it, and that he had nothing wrong with him, that it was the world that was f--ed up, not him. He told me about how some Philippine people went through a red light and plowed into his new red CRX. He said that a bunch of Philippine people came out of the buildings there and that they agreed to testify against John, to Lie and say that it was his fault! I was not there, so I don't know what happened. Anyway, when I tried to leave, he would get VERY UPSET! He would say, "NO! NO! YOU CAN'T LEAVE!" He then tried to go someplace that he really shouldn't have, and he had no luck in that department, because I had NO interest in him "that way"! He insisted, and that was when I bolted for the door. I ran the full length of the house, down the stairs and got away from him. His sister and I were interested in one another, and John would not let us be. He had to come between Annie and me. That was very upsetting. Later, when I was dating another woman, he got on a conference line and started crap there with my girlfriend. He's been a real problem, but I will not allow him in my life because I consider him to be dangerous and cruel. I don't consider you to be ANYTHING like him! You have a GOOD heart! I hope you always stay that way. I have no doubt that you will, James. You were never made to be a bad person. Thanks for the well wishes for my trip to Japan. I've tried to learn the language, but it's too difficult for me. I've managed to learn another 7 or 8 Latin based languages and dialects, but that's not saying much. They are all based on Latin, so they are just variations of the same theme. I did background check on my ancestry, and found out that I am Sicilian, Swiss Italian, Swedish, Japanese (remember my mom's eyes were a little slanted), and Portuguese. SO, I guess it explains why I'm so short! The steroids and medications I have taken have caused me to go up to over 200 Lbs at one point, and borderline diabetes, but I've gone down to 180 now. Since I damaged my right hand, and the stroke that affected my right side, I had to stop interpreting completely. I got my degrees and tested and membership and passed the state test, but it was all for nothing. I can't use it anyplace but in the US and Canada. ASL is not used anyplace but US and Canada. Since I'm leaving the country in a couple of years, it will be useless. They were going to use ASL in Italy. They needed teachers who could speak Italian, English, and knew ASL. That was part of my long-term plan, but now Italy has decided NOT to use ASL as a national form of manual communication for the Deaf. So, I'm probably not going to be going to Italy, at least not to live! At first, I was glad that my family there welcomed me, but now they have rejected me based on their own beliefs. I respect their choice, and I have left them alone. I have a wonderful Buddhist family to look forward to as time marches on. I am not sure what country I will be stationed, but I will go where I am needed. They know my linguistic and cultural skills, so they will place me accordingly. All in time, all in due season.
Just to let you know, I never saw the text about you having diabetes or the situation with your living arrangements in Oakland, or any of those things until a few minutes ago. Yesterday, none of that came up on my screen. ALL I saw was just the small message from you. I think there was some kind of issue with Facebook. Had I read that, I would have commented and included you in my prayers. I don't know why it did not show up. Well, I hope you have a great evening and a blessed night sleep. I hope that none of what I have said will be taken wrong. What I spoke of earlier about the things that had belonged to me, and our conversation on the phone about it. Maybe you were having some reaction to the new medications and it caused you to forget saying that to me? I don't know. I just know what you said, and nothing more. Again, I'm not angry about it. I was!, but I am not anymore. If it was able to get you money, that would be a good thing, but you say that you did not sell it. So, if you did not sell my things, what happened to them? You did not contact my mother or I, never asked us to come and get our things, which we would have. So, I have no idea of what happened to those things. They are in the past, so, let them stay there. I hope to move forward with my life, for as long as I have it. I had 1 stroke and 3 TIA's (small strokes), so that's not a good sign. Whatever time I have left, I plan on dedicating myself to the Buddha, to doing God's work, fitting myself into His grand plan, not the other way around. It was difficult at first, not being able to move my right side, but as time went on, it started to come back. I'm weak on that side, and I have times when I cannot function. I can't think or remember anything. Sometimes, I can't remember who I am, my name, or recognize anyone. It's the after affects of the stroke. As time goes on, it's getting better, but I am patient with myself. The Buddha is gentle, and I have to be gentle with myself. I pushed myself so hard to try to please everyone else, getting a degree in sign language, then a BS degree in Business. After that, I was ill with a severe ear infection in both ears. Blood and pus was dripping down my face from my ears. Going up in the airplane and down, then up, and down, it was bad. I ended up in the emergency room in Italy, then was transferred to a Hospital in Switzerland for surgery. I no longer hear like I used to, so that makes interpreting difficult, to say the least. In spite of it all, I'm happy! I look forward to leaving my body and going into the pure land of gentle lights, and being reincarnated into my next life, unless I achieve Buddhahood in this lifetime. Around the time of the stroke, I decided to kill myself because I lost faith in life. So, I took a double dose of every single medication that I had. 3 heart and blood pressure medications, 5 different kinds of anti-sezurie meds, aspirins, Tylonol, Ibuprofen, Clonopin, Xanax, azelastine, davan, Lopressor, Actifed, Metaprolol, Carbasapamete, and a lot of stuff. About 20 things in all, all at the same time! I remember changing my mind, going to the front door, opening it, looking outside and realizing that I would never see the sky again, never see these people again, and when I changed my mind, I tried to get my roommate's attention, but he just didn't seem to hear me. He then turned on the lawn mower, and I closed the door, went back in side, laid myself down to die. I was so upset when I woke up. I had decided to just let myself die, and I didn't, but at that point my mind was like a thousand voices yelling at me at the same time, and lights flashing, and it was dreadful. Later that week, I had the stroke. I think the stress was too much on my brain. So, it was my own fault. I have to live with the consequences of my actions. Only you and 2 other people know this story. I trust it with you to go no further.
What lead to my trying to do away with myself was a woman - a Lesbian interpreter. When I first arrived in Wichita, I did not have hearing aids. I went to a few medically related appointments, and they sent Her! She was not legally qualified to do medical interpreting. Her license level was too low. I asked the agency to please Never send her again, but they wanted her to get experience in Medical, so they kept sending her. At one point, I was speaking with a councilor, and I said that when I lived in SF, I had BAD experiences with Lesbians, and that I had a great hatred for them. I did not realize until that moment that the interpreter was a Lesbian! After that, she became vicious! She got a job at the college where I was getting my degree in Interpreting for the Deaf. I had 1 class left, and she was hired on as the Department head. She made me stay there for another 2 additional years! I had completed level 4 ASL, Level 4 Interpreting, Level 4 Professional Interpreting, Level 4 Specialized (medical, legal, scientific) interpreting, with a grade of "A". I had also completed all my general ed previously from City College. You were there when I graduated in 91. I Remember you yelling my name (smile!). She made me go back and take Introduction to Interpreting, Introduction to ASL, Level 1 ASL, Level 2 ASL, Level 3 ASL, Introduction to Transliterating, intermediate Transliterating, and Advanced Transliterating. Transliterating was not required when I entered the program, but she convinced the faculty to force me to be required to complete all of those classes. When I ended up getting "A"'s in all the work I did, she would recall my papers at the end of the semester, and she would regrade them, marking them down, so I would be exactly 1/2 point short of an "A". I would get an 89.5% in all of her classes, and the classes that her business associates taught. I was really angry, because I did not graduate with Highest Honors, I did not graduate with High Honors, I did not graduate with Honors, but I just received a regular everyday graduation certificate. She made sure that all the Lesbians in the program graduated with High Honors! Funny thing, none of them were able to pass their state certification exam like I did. I wonder how that could be!? One must be able to pass the Deaf Culture, Deaf History, and written legal test before going on to the interpreting performance test. They could not even pass the written tests! That woman and her friends said that they would make my life miserable, and they did. They said I would never work as an interpreter as long as they drew a breath, and I haven't. I was interpreting in church, doing Deaf ministry, but then they decided that I was TOO Pro-gay for them! They kicked me out! So, as you can see, life has it's sufferings for all of us. I'm resigned to just move forward. What is in the past is in the past. That which had hurt me, can hurt me no longer. I have to stop typing, as my hands are killing me! I cannot type as fast as I used to. Good luck with everything.
I guess you can see WHY I cannot talk to him! If you knew the things he wanted to do against you, you would not believe it! That is why he ended up with schizophrenia. The last time I saw him was by accident. He was in the muni underground in San Francisco. He started freaking out, yelling, "They are all Looking at me! They want to hurt me!" I had to calm him down and get him relaxed, telling him that I was there and that I would not let anyone hurt him. He insisted that I visit his apartment. I did, and then he would not let me leave! He took me into his bedroom, showed me that he had all these bottles of meds for his mental condition, and he dumped them all into the toilet! He said he did not need it, and that he had nothing wrong with him, that it was the world that was f--ed up, not him. He told me about how some Philippine people went through a red light and plowed into his new red CRX. He said that a bunch of Philippine people came out of the buildings there and that they agreed to testify against John, to Lie and say that it was his fault! I was not there, so I don't know what happened. Anyway, when I tried to leave, he would get VERY UPSET! He would say, "NO! NO! YOU CAN'T LEAVE!" He then tried to go someplace that he really shouldn't have, and he had no luck in that department, because I had NO interest in him "that way"! He insisted, and that was when I bolted for the door. I ran the full length of the house, down the stairs and got away from him. His sister and I were interested in one another, and John would not let us be. He had to come between Annie and me. That was very upsetting. Later, when I was dating another woman, he got on a conference line and started crap there with my girlfriend. He's been a real problem, but I will not allow him in my life because I consider him to be dangerous and cruel. I don't consider you to be ANYTHING like him! You have a GOOD heart! I hope you always stay that way. I have no doubt that you will, James. You were never made to be a bad person. Thanks for the well wishes for my trip to Japan. I've tried to learn the language, but it's too difficult for me. I've managed to learn another 7 or 8 Latin based languages and dialects, but that's not saying much. They are all based on Latin, so they are just variations of the same theme. I did background check on my ancestry, and found out that I am Sicilian, Swiss Italian, Swedish, Japanese (remember my mom's eyes were a little slanted), and Portuguese. SO, I guess it explains why I'm so short! The steroids and medications I have taken have caused me to go up to over 200 Lbs at one point, and borderline diabetes, but I've gone down to 180 now. Since I damaged my right hand, and the stroke that affected my right side, I had to stop interpreting completely. I got my degrees and tested and membership and passed the state test, but it was all for nothing. I can't use it anyplace but in the US and Canada. ASL is not used anyplace but US and Canada. Since I'm leaving the country in a couple of years, it will be useless. They were going to use ASL in Italy. They needed teachers who could speak Italian, English, and knew ASL. That was part of my long-term plan, but now Italy has decided NOT to use ASL as a national form of manual communication for the Deaf. So, I'm probably not going to be going to Italy, at least not to live! At first, I was glad that my family there welcomed me, but now they have rejected me based on their own beliefs. I respect their choice, and I have left them alone. I have a wonderful Buddhist family to look forward to as time marches on. I am not sure what country I will be stationed, but I will go where I am needed. They know my linguistic and cultural skills, so they will place me accordingly. All in time, all in due season.
Just to let you know, I never saw the text about you having diabetes or the situation with your living arrangements in Oakland, or any of those things until a few minutes ago. Yesterday, none of that came up on my screen. ALL I saw was just the small message from you. I think there was some kind of issue with Facebook. Had I read that, I would have commented and included you in my prayers. I don't know why it did not show up. Well, I hope you have a great evening and a blessed night sleep. I hope that none of what I have said will be taken wrong. What I spoke of earlier about the things that had belonged to me, and our conversation on the phone about it. Maybe you were having some reaction to the new medications and it caused you to forget saying that to me? I don't know. I just know what you said, and nothing more. Again, I'm not angry about it. I was!, but I am not anymore. If it was able to get you money, that would be a good thing, but you say that you did not sell it. So, if you did not sell my things, what happened to them? You did not contact my mother or I, never asked us to come and get our things, which we would have. So, I have no idea of what happened to those things. They are in the past, so, let them stay there. I hope to move forward with my life, for as long as I have it. I had 1 stroke and 3 TIA's (small strokes), so that's not a good sign. Whatever time I have left, I plan on dedicating myself to the Buddha, to doing God's work, fitting myself into His grand plan, not the other way around. It was difficult at first, not being able to move my right side, but as time went on, it started to come back. I'm weak on that side, and I have times when I cannot function. I can't think or remember anything. Sometimes, I can't remember who I am, my name, or recognize anyone. It's the after affects of the stroke. As time goes on, it's getting better, but I am patient with myself. The Buddha is gentle, and I have to be gentle with myself. I pushed myself so hard to try to please everyone else, getting a degree in sign language, then a BS degree in Business. After that, I was ill with a severe ear infection in both ears. Blood and pus was dripping down my face from my ears. Going up in the airplane and down, then up, and down, it was bad. I ended up in the emergency room in Italy, then was transferred to a Hospital in Switzerland for surgery. I no longer hear like I used to, so that makes interpreting difficult, to say the least. In spite of it all, I'm happy! I look forward to leaving my body and going into the pure land of gentle lights, and being reincarnated into my next life, unless I achieve Buddhahood in this lifetime. Around the time of the stroke, I decided to kill myself because I lost faith in life. So, I took a double dose of every single medication that I had. 3 heart and blood pressure medications, 5 different kinds of anti-sezurie meds, aspirins, Tylonol, Ibuprofen, Clonopin, Xanax, azelastine, davan, Lopressor, Actifed, Metaprolol, Carbasapamete, and a lot of stuff. About 20 things in all, all at the same time! I remember changing my mind, going to the front door, opening it, looking outside and realizing that I would never see the sky again, never see these people again, and when I changed my mind, I tried to get my roommate's attention, but he just didn't seem to hear me. He then turned on the lawn mower, and I closed the door, went back in side, laid myself down to die. I was so upset when I woke up. I had decided to just let myself die, and I didn't, but at that point my mind was like a thousand voices yelling at me at the same time, and lights flashing, and it was dreadful. Later that week, I had the stroke. I think the stress was too much on my brain. So, it was my own fault. I have to live with the consequences of my actions. Only you and 2 other people know this story. I trust it with you to go no further.
What lead to my trying to do away with myself was a woman - a Lesbian interpreter. When I first arrived in Wichita, I did not have hearing aids. I went to a few medically related appointments, and they sent Her! She was not legally qualified to do medical interpreting. Her license level was too low. I asked the agency to please Never send her again, but they wanted her to get experience in Medical, so they kept sending her. At one point, I was speaking with a councilor, and I said that when I lived in SF, I had BAD experiences with Lesbians, and that I had a great hatred for them. I did not realize until that moment that the interpreter was a Lesbian! After that, she became vicious! She got a job at the college where I was getting my degree in Interpreting for the Deaf. I had 1 class left, and she was hired on as the Department head. She made me stay there for another 2 additional years! I had completed level 4 ASL, Level 4 Interpreting, Level 4 Professional Interpreting, Level 4 Specialized (medical, legal, scientific) interpreting, with a grade of "A". I had also completed all my general ed previously from City College. You were there when I graduated in 91. I Remember you yelling my name (smile!). She made me go back and take Introduction to Interpreting, Introduction to ASL, Level 1 ASL, Level 2 ASL, Level 3 ASL, Introduction to Transliterating, intermediate Transliterating, and Advanced Transliterating. Transliterating was not required when I entered the program, but she convinced the faculty to force me to be required to complete all of those classes. When I ended up getting "A"'s in all the work I did, she would recall my papers at the end of the semester, and she would regrade them, marking them down, so I would be exactly 1/2 point short of an "A". I would get an 89.5% in all of her classes, and the classes that her business associates taught. I was really angry, because I did not graduate with Highest Honors, I did not graduate with High Honors, I did not graduate with Honors, but I just received a regular everyday graduation certificate. She made sure that all the Lesbians in the program graduated with High Honors! Funny thing, none of them were able to pass their state certification exam like I did. I wonder how that could be!? One must be able to pass the Deaf Culture, Deaf History, and written legal test before going on to the interpreting performance test. They could not even pass the written tests! That woman and her friends said that they would make my life miserable, and they did. They said I would never work as an interpreter as long as they drew a breath, and I haven't. I was interpreting in church, doing Deaf ministry, but then they decided that I was TOO Pro-gay for them! They kicked me out! So, as you can see, life has it's sufferings for all of us. I'm resigned to just move forward. What is in the past is in the past. That which had hurt me, can hurt me no longer. I have to stop typing, as my hands are killing me! I cannot type as fast as I used to. Good luck with everything.
Jul 30, 2012 9:28:10pm
James M Driskill
As you began, so will I. It is unfortunate that you take a few statements I made and place so much weight on those messages and not on the positive messages of admiration and respect that I still hold for you and our time shared together. I have read every word and will keep every word that you have sent to me in these last few days. What seems to be apparent on this readers side as I read your words, there is some great disturbance that I have caused within you here. For that, I am sorry. I have no idea why you think I had taken away any properties of yours to sell for some kind of financial benefit. Of that accusation you have placed upon me, this is untrue and I would and do swear those ideas of yours are untrue as well put all I honor to GOD that you will know the truth. I also say this as being a former notary. I wish you well in your journey. I want to wish you the best in your trip to Japan. Thank you for the final regards you stated today as you have, are greatly appreciated. Please take care of yourself.
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Jul 30, 2012 7:04:53pm
Tom Aiasicca
James:
It is unfortunate that out of all that I wrote to you, all of the kindness I extended to you, and my words clearly reflect that. I won't re-paste quotes from my messages to you. You know what I said. It is disappointing that you chose to focus on a presumption that, as you put it "what may be unknown tension". It's something of which you are uncertain, so you were unable to honestly claim it to be true, because it is a guess that you have come up with, something that you believe "may" be true.
In all that I wrote to you, I indicated that I wish you well, have prayed for you, sent Christmas greetings to your family, and am pleased that you are in the process of developing a special relationship. Yet, the words you send to me are that of negativity. I kindly asked that of you to not respond write back if it was going to be of negativity. I'm in the Buddhist Priesthood. I will not allow myself to develop any hateful feelings to be directed toward you in words that can in any way be misinterpreted as cruel. My message was as clear as I could make it, that I respected you enough to respond to you and let you know that you had been in my thoughts over the years, and that I wish you all the best. I fail to see why you felt compelled to replay to me in such a way. I'm not complaining that you didn't show any concerns regarding my issues with Cancer or anything else. Your words have allowed me to see the difference between us. As I said before, I consider that issue of two ships that crossed one another's path for a short period of time, but your ship was not content being docked to one bay, and it needed to be free to sail on. You got what you wanted, and I had no choice but to move on. Each of us sailed on to various destinations in life. I never said my destination was better than yours. I feel no desire to know why you responded negativly toward me. That would require you to answer to me. I am no one that you have to answer to. I already made it clear that whatever electronic devices and equipment you had to sell in order to survive, or whatever you needed to do with it.... I am TRULY GLAD it was there as a means for you to get some money to help you get by. It served you more than it would have me. I Truly am sincere in my words. I hold NO hate, NO anger, No animosity toward you. I hold love and respect for the entity of the eternal Buddha, and the Buddha within. So, I have finally learned that respect is not only something that I give or show others, but something that I have for myself. I love the Buddha within, and I protect the fine Dharma. I respectfully request that you refrain from any further contact with me. I sincerely want for you all the best. I wish for you to have your time spent in loving kindness, compassion, and all that is good and worthy. It is far better for you to not waste your time concerned about a possibility that there May be a bit of unrecognized hostility. I want for you to spend your time in pleasure, in comfort, in happiness, rejoice in the fact that there is someone new in your life with whom you can share special time together! If after reading this, you still think poorly of me, that is fine. You have right to your opinion. Please just respect my wishes to not be contacted any further. I don't wish to be the cause of any unpleasant feelings in anyone's life. Since my kind words to you in the 3 messages I sent have resulted in a short reply that the system shows you sent me yesterday; a reply that is anything but warm or friendly, but demonstrates your suspicion of my sincerity, I will not reply in kind with any unkindness or suspicions, but simply state as I have already, I wish you the very best in your life, and thank you for respecting my wishes to not communicate with you. We all have such a short time in this lifetime, spending it on concerns of the possibility that I May have Unknown hostility toward you yields no positive benefits to either one of us. That same energy can be spent creating good positive Karma. Your concerns about what I feel toward you stand in your way of doing that. I will not be the cause of keeping you from doing the great things in life that you can do. Be happy, look forward to your future with great joy and anticipation, cast your fears aside, and embrace life. Please don't feel that I'm Giving you Orders on what to do. My suggesting that you "Be Happy, Look Forward with Joy and cast fears away, and embrace life", that's all coming from a place of genuine compassion and care. I'm sorry that your previous message to me didn't seem to indicate any awareness of the good wishes, but focused on your suspicion of my possibly harboring unknown hostility toward you. That is what you felt justified to write - justified to serve me with a message that does not acknowledge the multiple times I wished you well in so many different ways. All that I am, all that I have to offer in words of kindness have already been said. To continue to write would be disrespectful to the Buddha. I would not want you to misinterpret this message as an apology for a wrong I have not done. I have pleased the Buddha by honoring those whom take it upon themselves to share kind words with me, as you did in your first contact. If there exists any hostilities between or among us, in truth, I harbor none of them in my harbor. I would dishonour the Entity of the Eternal Buddha by harboring such ill will. I would not be able to fulfill the responsibilities of an Ordained Priest, nor deserve Ordination into the Priesthood if I was a vessel for such negativity. Have an extraordinary fulfilled life, full of joy, happiness, companionship, and good will toward others. May you grow in your chosen path, whatever it be, and continue to do good and spread love wherever you go. May peace be your pillow at night and comfort you in your heart. These words I speak, I speak for you only. You can search the internet and you won't find them. The Buddha's great compassion helped me to write this, specially for you! Be blessed James, in this lifetime, and in all lifetimes to come.
It is unfortunate that out of all that I wrote to you, all of the kindness I extended to you, and my words clearly reflect that. I won't re-paste quotes from my messages to you. You know what I said. It is disappointing that you chose to focus on a presumption that, as you put it "what may be unknown tension". It's something of which you are uncertain, so you were unable to honestly claim it to be true, because it is a guess that you have come up with, something that you believe "may" be true.
In all that I wrote to you, I indicated that I wish you well, have prayed for you, sent Christmas greetings to your family, and am pleased that you are in the process of developing a special relationship. Yet, the words you send to me are that of negativity. I kindly asked that of you to not respond write back if it was going to be of negativity. I'm in the Buddhist Priesthood. I will not allow myself to develop any hateful feelings to be directed toward you in words that can in any way be misinterpreted as cruel. My message was as clear as I could make it, that I respected you enough to respond to you and let you know that you had been in my thoughts over the years, and that I wish you all the best. I fail to see why you felt compelled to replay to me in such a way. I'm not complaining that you didn't show any concerns regarding my issues with Cancer or anything else. Your words have allowed me to see the difference between us. As I said before, I consider that issue of two ships that crossed one another's path for a short period of time, but your ship was not content being docked to one bay, and it needed to be free to sail on. You got what you wanted, and I had no choice but to move on. Each of us sailed on to various destinations in life. I never said my destination was better than yours. I feel no desire to know why you responded negativly toward me. That would require you to answer to me. I am no one that you have to answer to. I already made it clear that whatever electronic devices and equipment you had to sell in order to survive, or whatever you needed to do with it.... I am TRULY GLAD it was there as a means for you to get some money to help you get by. It served you more than it would have me. I Truly am sincere in my words. I hold NO hate, NO anger, No animosity toward you. I hold love and respect for the entity of the eternal Buddha, and the Buddha within. So, I have finally learned that respect is not only something that I give or show others, but something that I have for myself. I love the Buddha within, and I protect the fine Dharma. I respectfully request that you refrain from any further contact with me. I sincerely want for you all the best. I wish for you to have your time spent in loving kindness, compassion, and all that is good and worthy. It is far better for you to not waste your time concerned about a possibility that there May be a bit of unrecognized hostility. I want for you to spend your time in pleasure, in comfort, in happiness, rejoice in the fact that there is someone new in your life with whom you can share special time together! If after reading this, you still think poorly of me, that is fine. You have right to your opinion. Please just respect my wishes to not be contacted any further. I don't wish to be the cause of any unpleasant feelings in anyone's life. Since my kind words to you in the 3 messages I sent have resulted in a short reply that the system shows you sent me yesterday; a reply that is anything but warm or friendly, but demonstrates your suspicion of my sincerity, I will not reply in kind with any unkindness or suspicions, but simply state as I have already, I wish you the very best in your life, and thank you for respecting my wishes to not communicate with you. We all have such a short time in this lifetime, spending it on concerns of the possibility that I May have Unknown hostility toward you yields no positive benefits to either one of us. That same energy can be spent creating good positive Karma. Your concerns about what I feel toward you stand in your way of doing that. I will not be the cause of keeping you from doing the great things in life that you can do. Be happy, look forward to your future with great joy and anticipation, cast your fears aside, and embrace life. Please don't feel that I'm Giving you Orders on what to do. My suggesting that you "Be Happy, Look Forward with Joy and cast fears away, and embrace life", that's all coming from a place of genuine compassion and care. I'm sorry that your previous message to me didn't seem to indicate any awareness of the good wishes, but focused on your suspicion of my possibly harboring unknown hostility toward you. That is what you felt justified to write - justified to serve me with a message that does not acknowledge the multiple times I wished you well in so many different ways. All that I am, all that I have to offer in words of kindness have already been said. To continue to write would be disrespectful to the Buddha. I would not want you to misinterpret this message as an apology for a wrong I have not done. I have pleased the Buddha by honoring those whom take it upon themselves to share kind words with me, as you did in your first contact. If there exists any hostilities between or among us, in truth, I harbor none of them in my harbor. I would dishonour the Entity of the Eternal Buddha by harboring such ill will. I would not be able to fulfill the responsibilities of an Ordained Priest, nor deserve Ordination into the Priesthood if I was a vessel for such negativity. Have an extraordinary fulfilled life, full of joy, happiness, companionship, and good will toward others. May you grow in your chosen path, whatever it be, and continue to do good and spread love wherever you go. May peace be your pillow at night and comfort you in your heart. These words I speak, I speak for you only. You can search the internet and you won't find them. The Buddha's great compassion helped me to write this, specially for you! Be blessed James, in this lifetime, and in all lifetimes to come.
Jul 30, 2012 2:33:53pm
James M Driskill
"In your point of view, in that statement there are only those who are Enemies or Friends" -- note that it is tweety bird giving that message. 1st it is a joke and 2nd it reflects what may be unknown tension between us that i was not sure were still present and as you replied so short [explained] I just was not sure where I stood with you.
Jul 29, 2012 12:07:55pm
James M Driskill
"When I wrote to your parents and sent them Christmas cards with my best wishes and blessings, but I did not hear back,",
I too did not know that you wrote to them. They did not tell me. Wow, what I learn here.
I've always wondered if they were really able to control your seizures very well. You seemed to not have much control back then. I am glad that you have updated me on many aspects of your life, both religious and heath.
I am sorry that you had a stroke. The guy mentioned in this story here, suffered a stroke too and had a bit of a challenge walking and had to use a cane. This is a true story...
For me, I left California on Sept 5th 2010 on a road to no where. This after I wrote some words on the walls and the floors of a motel I was staying at in San Bernardino. This was to share time with a person I met on the internet but was staying at his parents place just blocks walking distance from Grande Vista to the Condos on the North Side of Blair Park.
This was not the first time I had met this guy and in the motel, we had an argument that I just could not let pass. So I took him home and when I returned back to the motel room, my notebook/computer was stolen out of the room. This event created turmoil in my mind to the actions that followed. I wrote several things upon the walls and on the floor and counter-tops in permanent marker. Mentioned was words like Call My Therapist/Doctor and the # --- Call the Police! and there are guns at the house of my parents and I am going there to shoot myself dead.
Then I proceeded to call the persons I really blame for this incident, who put me into homelessness again unduly. The apartment complex in San Diego County office number which at this time was after hours and was closed. I proceeded to read what was written on the walls onto voice mail at their office.
Now you know about the guns in house at my parents. Is this a really good place for me in this mental state? When I arrived home, I sneaked in and collected all of my things and left in my car heading north. Many times during this foggy mental road trip, I was playing chicken with oncoming cars as well, crying excessively over all these events cumulatively all of the way back to 2005. I even wanted to take my steering wheel and sharply cut to the right at what would be a good place to go over a cliff.
The police arrived at my parents house from the condition of the motel room. I was charged $300 on my debit card for the damages. There were papers and such attached to the walls of my room for which the police collected. I was reported as a missing person.
I arrived in to Cheyenne Wyoming on September 11th 2010 when I was running out of money for gas to keep going. I stayed at the local shelter and got an apartment in November which is where I am at right now. Also I secured true mental health treatment with Peak Wellness Center here in Cheyenne.
I have been diagnosed as Bipolar Disorder / Schizoaffective Disorder and have been on Lithium since about 6 months after I arrived here.
I received word while I was here that first month that due to the phone calls that I made in the motel room, I had a warrant for my arrest for phone harassment charges which was issued on Sept 27th 2010.
Go figure that a person in such a mental state, already having had a visit from the San Diego Sheriff on June 11th 2006 shortly after I moved in for a "Welfare Check" which has been documented online, I would get phone harassment charges instead of them calling the "adult protective services" or other authorities to notify them of my condition.
In that conflict, the apartment complex manager threatened that she would file a "3 day notice [ late payment ]" for one penny. There are many absurd positions she stated to me, this is just one of the very extreme.
Now in my other landlord/tenant dispute conflict, I personally went to the Oakland Office of the FBI to report several facts associated with my conflict. I had no remedy but the fact that I had to go to the FBI might indicate something quite serious.
Two followup events occurred after I got back to my parents house. My storage unit in Oakland was found unlocked in October and as I started to write about the events online started on December 24th 2006, my car was stolen from outside of my parents house and abandoned at the address where my bother used to live in San Bernardino.
Do you think that I am making this up?
Well, the vehicle report is online at:
http://multiply.com/mu/inthemindway/image/26/photos/1/600x600/68/Vechicle-Report-5WLE984-01-09-2007.jpg?et=hzJajUsY5zSMsN8fYIZWrw&nmid=16173659
----- Now do you see the truth and what I just said to you was "My Mission" : "oblivion the deeds of a community, and send them on to futurity in an imperishable record, should deliver a plain, unvarnished tale."
----
I have also been diagnosed with Diabetes and have been taking insulin for now about 4 months and on medications only for now about 2 years. When I started taking insulin, my weight dropped like almost magic. I am currently weigh the least I have ever been in my adult life at 175.
If you had any inkling to search for me online, you would know that my HIV status is much a part of what I have had to document. I think you already know about the disastrous separation between Paul's Plumbing and myself in April and then July of 1999 is most likely the period that I got infected. I was first diagnosed HIV/Aids in September 1999. That health issue of HIV for me is not out of control and is being properly controlled and managed.
You are going to Japan, sounds both exciting and concerning with all conditions that you speak of. I hope that journey gives you just rewards.
I know for me, there was a promise that I made in some words I wrote to the Attorney involved in my housing case in Oakland. Those words written May 20 2006 say this:
[ Excerpt ]
-------
HUMANITY BEGS US ALL TO REMOVE
"There is discrimination in this world,
& slavery, & slaughter, & starvation."
AND WE ALL MUST HAVE A VOICE
37° 45' 27.44"N, 122° 11' 4.00"W : 53 Feet ALT
MAY 20 2006
----
Tell me why not. Am I wrong? Am I right?
Are you afraid to discuss it with me?
I HURT : IMPAILS MY SOUL HURTS
That is the emotion that
sweeps through my heart.
: I PROMISE MYSELF :
: I PROMISE GODDESS :
: I PROMISE GOD I MUST :
: I PROMISE YOU KIND SIR :
I WILL WALK TO THE DIRECTION OF HOME....
TO KNOW I HAVE TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK
TO REMOVE
"There is discrimination in this world,
& slavery, & slaughter, & starvation."
------
At the time this is written, May 20 2006, I was living in Oakland and the walk I am talking about here would be from
Oakland
to
San Bernardino
The promise that I have made here is left unfulfilled.
I need resources and assistance in building the support
framework to allow me to actually take a walk, in the
public view in protest of past events successfully.
I know other walks have been done. So it is possible.
This is just about 500 miles....
What do you think?
Eric Maier did more than 500 miles.
http://alongwalkhome.us/
I am glad that you and I have had a chance to correspond again.
I too did not know that you wrote to them. They did not tell me. Wow, what I learn here.
I've always wondered if they were really able to control your seizures very well. You seemed to not have much control back then. I am glad that you have updated me on many aspects of your life, both religious and heath.
I am sorry that you had a stroke. The guy mentioned in this story here, suffered a stroke too and had a bit of a challenge walking and had to use a cane. This is a true story...
For me, I left California on Sept 5th 2010 on a road to no where. This after I wrote some words on the walls and the floors of a motel I was staying at in San Bernardino. This was to share time with a person I met on the internet but was staying at his parents place just blocks walking distance from Grande Vista to the Condos on the North Side of Blair Park.
This was not the first time I had met this guy and in the motel, we had an argument that I just could not let pass. So I took him home and when I returned back to the motel room, my notebook/computer was stolen out of the room. This event created turmoil in my mind to the actions that followed. I wrote several things upon the walls and on the floor and counter-tops in permanent marker. Mentioned was words like Call My Therapist/Doctor and the # --- Call the Police! and there are guns at the house of my parents and I am going there to shoot myself dead.
Then I proceeded to call the persons I really blame for this incident, who put me into homelessness again unduly. The apartment complex in San Diego County office number which at this time was after hours and was closed. I proceeded to read what was written on the walls onto voice mail at their office.
Now you know about the guns in house at my parents. Is this a really good place for me in this mental state? When I arrived home, I sneaked in and collected all of my things and left in my car heading north. Many times during this foggy mental road trip, I was playing chicken with oncoming cars as well, crying excessively over all these events cumulatively all of the way back to 2005. I even wanted to take my steering wheel and sharply cut to the right at what would be a good place to go over a cliff.
The police arrived at my parents house from the condition of the motel room. I was charged $300 on my debit card for the damages. There were papers and such attached to the walls of my room for which the police collected. I was reported as a missing person.
I arrived in to Cheyenne Wyoming on September 11th 2010 when I was running out of money for gas to keep going. I stayed at the local shelter and got an apartment in November which is where I am at right now. Also I secured true mental health treatment with Peak Wellness Center here in Cheyenne.
I have been diagnosed as Bipolar Disorder / Schizoaffective Disorder and have been on Lithium since about 6 months after I arrived here.
I received word while I was here that first month that due to the phone calls that I made in the motel room, I had a warrant for my arrest for phone harassment charges which was issued on Sept 27th 2010.
Go figure that a person in such a mental state, already having had a visit from the San Diego Sheriff on June 11th 2006 shortly after I moved in for a "Welfare Check" which has been documented online, I would get phone harassment charges instead of them calling the "adult protective services" or other authorities to notify them of my condition.
In that conflict, the apartment complex manager threatened that she would file a "3 day notice [ late payment ]" for one penny. There are many absurd positions she stated to me, this is just one of the very extreme.
Now in my other landlord/tenant dispute conflict, I personally went to the Oakland Office of the FBI to report several facts associated with my conflict. I had no remedy but the fact that I had to go to the FBI might indicate something quite serious.
Two followup events occurred after I got back to my parents house. My storage unit in Oakland was found unlocked in October and as I started to write about the events online started on December 24th 2006, my car was stolen from outside of my parents house and abandoned at the address where my bother used to live in San Bernardino.
Do you think that I am making this up?
Well, the vehicle report is online at:
http://multiply.com/mu/inthemindway/image/26/photos/1/600x600/68/Vechicle-Report-5WLE984-01-09-2007.jpg?et=hzJajUsY5zSMsN8fYIZWrw&nmid=16173659
----- Now do you see the truth and what I just said to you was "My Mission" : "oblivion the deeds of a community, and send them on to futurity in an imperishable record, should deliver a plain, unvarnished tale."
----
I have also been diagnosed with Diabetes and have been taking insulin for now about 4 months and on medications only for now about 2 years. When I started taking insulin, my weight dropped like almost magic. I am currently weigh the least I have ever been in my adult life at 175.
If you had any inkling to search for me online, you would know that my HIV status is much a part of what I have had to document. I think you already know about the disastrous separation between Paul's Plumbing and myself in April and then July of 1999 is most likely the period that I got infected. I was first diagnosed HIV/Aids in September 1999. That health issue of HIV for me is not out of control and is being properly controlled and managed.
You are going to Japan, sounds both exciting and concerning with all conditions that you speak of. I hope that journey gives you just rewards.
I know for me, there was a promise that I made in some words I wrote to the Attorney involved in my housing case in Oakland. Those words written May 20 2006 say this:
[ Excerpt ]
-------
HUMANITY BEGS US ALL TO REMOVE
"There is discrimination in this world,
& slavery, & slaughter, & starvation."
AND WE ALL MUST HAVE A VOICE
37° 45' 27.44"N, 122° 11' 4.00"W : 53 Feet ALT
MAY 20 2006
----
Tell me why not. Am I wrong? Am I right?
Are you afraid to discuss it with me?
I HURT : IMPAILS MY SOUL HURTS
That is the emotion that
sweeps through my heart.
: I PROMISE MYSELF :
: I PROMISE GODDESS :
: I PROMISE GOD I MUST :
: I PROMISE YOU KIND SIR :
I WILL WALK TO THE DIRECTION OF HOME....
TO KNOW I HAVE TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK
TO REMOVE
"There is discrimination in this world,
& slavery, & slaughter, & starvation."
------
At the time this is written, May 20 2006, I was living in Oakland and the walk I am talking about here would be from
Oakland
to
San Bernardino
The promise that I have made here is left unfulfilled.
I need resources and assistance in building the support
framework to allow me to actually take a walk, in the
public view in protest of past events successfully.
I know other walks have been done. So it is possible.
This is just about 500 miles....
What do you think?
Eric Maier did more than 500 miles.
http://alongwalkhome.us/
I am glad that you and I have had a chance to correspond again.
Jul 29, 2012 11:49:05am
Tom Aiasicca
Last message of the 3 messages.
Based on what I have followed over the years, reading things on the internet about you; yes, I have read about you, and the things that you tell me about your life and who you are today. I have to be honest and say that Until I feel otherwise, I feel that at this time, our trying to establish a friendship would be a mistake. We are completely different people. My interests and yours are, in my observation, different enough to not provide for much in the way of meaningful and beneficial conversations. You and your life are in a different place from that of myself. Please note that I have not said anything to infer that I am better or superior, or that you are not worthy or anything negative about you or negative about me. This is because there is no need to point fingers, no need to make such unkind statements. As I started out in my first email to you, I am please that you are looking well and have a stable living arrangement and have a relationship with someone on the horizon. These are all good things, and I wish you all the very best with them all. I do not feel that I have a part in any of this at this time. Two ships had crossed paths, but they sailed on to different destinations. Is it to say that one destination is better than the other? I have not suggested that, and I'm making every effort to make sure that you understand that I hold NO hate, NO hard feelings, or anything against you. I cannot bring back the electronic equipment that you had that belonged to me. I cannot do that, so why get angry at you? It probably served you better to have gotten what little money out of it by selling it. Really! I was not using it, so if it was able to become a positive benefit for you, that is good! I did not feel that way at the time, but I do now. I truly wish you all the best, and believe that we have gone in different directions. John had tried to get in contact with me, but I did not return his call. I have not contacted him on Facebook. I respect you enough to communicate these messages to you, but I do not have the ability to respect John because he was always so hateful toward you, and that showed disrespect to you and me. I cannot return his call. It is for the best. I do wish you all the best in your life. I appologize for the fact that my first message came cross with the one word "Facts", and that your response to it was one of a somewhat less favorable tone.... not hateful, but not ingratiating. I can understand the confusion, but as I said that all things happen for a reason. It was interesting to see that a single word provoked a response as a it did. Rather than giving me a benefit of the doubt, or being concerned that something was wrong with my computer connection, or perhaps my ability to complete the letter, or a "Middle Path" response of "Your message was only one word, so I am not going to make presumptions, rather, I will let you know that all I got was one word, "Facts". Was this in error, or is that what you intended to say?" Instead, your reaction was a bit polarized. It is Your Right To Have Your Feelings, even if they are indicating displeasure with my message, and not taking into consideration any other possible explanation. It takes time to recover from a seizure, and I got back on as quickly as I could to try to respond, but by that point in time, you already said what you did. That is fine. Everyone has their feelings, beliefs, and I am not claiming to be superior to you. If you should understand and respect what I am saying, then that is a good thing. If you have not changed much, and are willing to respond with a message of confrontation, defensive, and pointing out the errors of my ways and that I am wrong about this and bad for feeling this way, or whatever, then I feel that you have not changed as much as I thought you had, and it will be an unwelcomed, unkind response. NOTHING in my message to you were pointed or of an unkind nature. I would respectfully request that you consider doing me the favor of not responding to these message if your response will include any negativity, anger, or animosity. I don't wish for you to create any bad Karma for yourself. I wish only Goodness, God's Grace, the Compassion of the Buddha, and a strong sense of Good Self Worth for you! (smile)! May you have many years of good health ahead of you, may you receive blessings and benefits during this life's journey, and may you know that you can always take refuge in the fine Dharma of the Lotus Sutra, or whatever path, practices, or rituals that serve you best! There are many roads, and it's wonderful that most of them are GOOD ONES! Be blessed.
Based on what I have followed over the years, reading things on the internet about you; yes, I have read about you, and the things that you tell me about your life and who you are today. I have to be honest and say that Until I feel otherwise, I feel that at this time, our trying to establish a friendship would be a mistake. We are completely different people. My interests and yours are, in my observation, different enough to not provide for much in the way of meaningful and beneficial conversations. You and your life are in a different place from that of myself. Please note that I have not said anything to infer that I am better or superior, or that you are not worthy or anything negative about you or negative about me. This is because there is no need to point fingers, no need to make such unkind statements. As I started out in my first email to you, I am please that you are looking well and have a stable living arrangement and have a relationship with someone on the horizon. These are all good things, and I wish you all the very best with them all. I do not feel that I have a part in any of this at this time. Two ships had crossed paths, but they sailed on to different destinations. Is it to say that one destination is better than the other? I have not suggested that, and I'm making every effort to make sure that you understand that I hold NO hate, NO hard feelings, or anything against you. I cannot bring back the electronic equipment that you had that belonged to me. I cannot do that, so why get angry at you? It probably served you better to have gotten what little money out of it by selling it. Really! I was not using it, so if it was able to become a positive benefit for you, that is good! I did not feel that way at the time, but I do now. I truly wish you all the best, and believe that we have gone in different directions. John had tried to get in contact with me, but I did not return his call. I have not contacted him on Facebook. I respect you enough to communicate these messages to you, but I do not have the ability to respect John because he was always so hateful toward you, and that showed disrespect to you and me. I cannot return his call. It is for the best. I do wish you all the best in your life. I appologize for the fact that my first message came cross with the one word "Facts", and that your response to it was one of a somewhat less favorable tone.... not hateful, but not ingratiating. I can understand the confusion, but as I said that all things happen for a reason. It was interesting to see that a single word provoked a response as a it did. Rather than giving me a benefit of the doubt, or being concerned that something was wrong with my computer connection, or perhaps my ability to complete the letter, or a "Middle Path" response of "Your message was only one word, so I am not going to make presumptions, rather, I will let you know that all I got was one word, "Facts". Was this in error, or is that what you intended to say?" Instead, your reaction was a bit polarized. It is Your Right To Have Your Feelings, even if they are indicating displeasure with my message, and not taking into consideration any other possible explanation. It takes time to recover from a seizure, and I got back on as quickly as I could to try to respond, but by that point in time, you already said what you did. That is fine. Everyone has their feelings, beliefs, and I am not claiming to be superior to you. If you should understand and respect what I am saying, then that is a good thing. If you have not changed much, and are willing to respond with a message of confrontation, defensive, and pointing out the errors of my ways and that I am wrong about this and bad for feeling this way, or whatever, then I feel that you have not changed as much as I thought you had, and it will be an unwelcomed, unkind response. NOTHING in my message to you were pointed or of an unkind nature. I would respectfully request that you consider doing me the favor of not responding to these message if your response will include any negativity, anger, or animosity. I don't wish for you to create any bad Karma for yourself. I wish only Goodness, God's Grace, the Compassion of the Buddha, and a strong sense of Good Self Worth for you! (smile)! May you have many years of good health ahead of you, may you receive blessings and benefits during this life's journey, and may you know that you can always take refuge in the fine Dharma of the Lotus Sutra, or whatever path, practices, or rituals that serve you best! There are many roads, and it's wonderful that most of them are GOOD ONES! Be blessed.
Jul 29, 2012 11:47:37am
Tom Aiasicca
I did it again, my hand jerked and I hit the return key....... So, a separate letter to you continuing from the last one. I am pleased that you look so good. I have thought about you over the years, kept you in my prayers for healing, and that your medications would keep you well and sustain you in good health for as long as possible. My cousin is also dying, and medications have not helped him. I pray for him daily at the alter.
After you and I had no further contact, and I grew dissatisfied with New Age forms of religious practice, such as Wicca or even a church I joined for a short while, the Unitarian Universalist, I left there because it was very focused on Lesbian issues, and I encountered a great deal of resistance there. Some of the Lesbians were very nice, but others were rude and in my face. When I encounter negativity, I do not reply with Negativity. I simply eliminate negativity from the picture by removing myself from the equation.
It seems from the tone of your message that you have a great deal of issues you have worked though in your life, and others that are yet to be addressed. I wish you well in all of them. I went through a period of anger. To quote words that you included in your message to me, "I would rather have an honest enemy than a fake friend." I should point out that these are VERY opposite to Buddhist philosophy. In your point of view, in that statement there are only those who are Enemies or Friends. In Buddhism, we have what we call the MIDDLE PATH! The Middle Path means that extremes do not work well, that most things in life are in the single vehicle, and they are a Middle path. So, We create our own suffering when we think of people as either Friends or Enemies. There are those who are known to us, but fall in the middle path. There is a reasonable amount of respect and fair treatment, but no great efforts to help or hurt the person. Unless otherwise needed, I approach life in the Middle path. Many years have gone by, and the person you know does not exist. The person I know, does not exist. Each moment that exists only does so for an instant. It is gone forever. Memories are intangible fragments and can cloud our lives. There are many dimensions to Buddhism. There are the 10 worlds, with the 6 lower worlds and 4 higher, noble worlds. There is the 4 noble truths I mentioned earlier: Suffering exists, The nature of suffering, The cessation of Suffering, and lastly, the path that leads to the cessation, the ending of suffering. There is the 3,000 lifetimes in a moment! The list goes on and on....... Based on my studies and teaching, it is important to be honest, it is important to be respectful, and it is important to chose the gentle path as apposed to the harsh path. If a person can say something to someone in a way which displays disrespect or cruelty or a way in which the compassion of the Buddha and the love of God and All the Bodisatvahs can be displayed, then it is best to do as His Holiness the Dalai Lama has suggested, to chose the most considerate path.
I had gone through some issues in the past, when I felt it was wrong for you to have not returned my electronic equipment to me: My midi drive, computer, and other items and ham radio antennas and such. There were other issues, too, regarding lies that you told me when we first met many years ago, and living conditions under which were not the most pleasant. It was a shame that Eric admitted to me that the only reason he let me sleep on his couch in the projects was because he needed to use my computer. He admitted that to me. That he was basically prostituting himself for the sake of using my computer. Eventually, he went inside the computer to try to learn what made it tick. When he did so, he messed it up, and it stopped working. I had only owned the computer a year at that point, and I had close to 2,000 dollars invested into that thing. I did not make an issue of it. I let it go I was disappointed to find out certain things that had taken place before I moved down there, that you did eventually admit to me, and in all honesty, I would not have moved had I known that. You admitted yourself, that the reason you did not tell me was because you know that I would not go if I had found out. You were correct. I hold strongly to certain believes and standards of behavior. For most of the time that I was in SB, I was unhappy because of the fact that trust had been broken, and I felt betrayed. l also recall that when you drove my new car with only 3,000 miles on it, you had a couple of mishaps which scrapped it and such. You needed a new car, and I let you have my new car for basically, simply taking over a few remaining payments. You got a 10,000 dollar car for new to nothing. I did what I could to not get mad and insist on you paying me for damages, but instead to make it to your advantage since you were not able to get to work, and it was important for you to have dependable transportation. When you burned your bridges in SB, and Norma turned on you, Falsely accusing you of things that were NOT true. Why she did that to you, I don't know, but I know you were innocent of it! Don't feel bad. When I completed my studies in Library Science and went to get my degree, part of it was proving that I had spent time helping in the Library, as you recall I did volunteer to help in the computer lab upstairs and I also helps with the stacks downstairs. Norma refused to confirm it, and she actually made disparaging remarks about my character and personality! What she didn't realize was that the head of the Library Information Science program at the college was the WRONG person to be spouting off such hateful comments. So, He realized that he was dealing with Bible-thumping hateful, judgmental woman. He took my word for it, and credited me for having completed the time working/volunteering in a library. A shame she hated us so much after ALL the programing and system configuration you and I did, mainly you! She showed no appreciation, and a great deal of contempt toward us. We cannot be held responsible for her life condition of ill feelings, and we do not have to accept it, welcome it, or take it upon ourselves as truth, particularly because it was not truth.
At this time, I'm preparing for a visit from my Master today. He has been here the last few days helping me prepare for my ordination as his a First Disciple Buddhist Priest. I have to get going because he's due to arrive soon. In closing, and I do say this with honesty and compassion: I feel that all things happen for a reason. My stroke was for a reason. It kept me from becoming involved in the secular business world. It brought me back to doing God's work, back to Spiritual work. By the way, in Buddhism, there is NO Discrimination against being Gay, Bi, Lesbian, Bisbian, or anything like that. Only if a monk FORCES himself on another monk is it wrong. It's actually documented that in many Buddhist organizations, some monks develop deep, loving, meaningful relationships with one another - members of the same sex. The Buddha has no issues with gay vs. straight as do some Christians. Most Catholics in the US are now in favor of Gay Marriage. This may be a good thing for those of that faith who which to marry (at some point in the future). As far as you and I go, as I mentioned earlier, each moment is lived, and it's gone. What was, was, and it exists no longer. I have let go of all my anger toward you, my shock at your mother saying that she would have sex with you to turn you straight, and all of that. I have forgiven your brother for trying to rape you, as you told me about that Terrible event. I'm so glad that someone came home so he had to stop it! I'm sorry for the trauma you had endured with parents who were alcoholics, as you related to me your childhood was really difficult at times. In Buddhism, we know that our lives are filled with Suffering. It's the way it is. We have to study and understand the Four Noble Truths and understand that it's not our fault, and to let go, to not set ourselves up by wanting things that can't be. It would be like if you were to say that you would not be happy unless you were completely HIV free. That's not possible, so, you would setup your own suffering yourself. If I was to insist that I have full perfect health, no heart problems, no cancer issues, no seizures, no breathing problems, and that unless I have all of these issues, I won't be happy...... I would be setting myself up for suffering.
After you and I had no further contact, and I grew dissatisfied with New Age forms of religious practice, such as Wicca or even a church I joined for a short while, the Unitarian Universalist, I left there because it was very focused on Lesbian issues, and I encountered a great deal of resistance there. Some of the Lesbians were very nice, but others were rude and in my face. When I encounter negativity, I do not reply with Negativity. I simply eliminate negativity from the picture by removing myself from the equation.
It seems from the tone of your message that you have a great deal of issues you have worked though in your life, and others that are yet to be addressed. I wish you well in all of them. I went through a period of anger. To quote words that you included in your message to me, "I would rather have an honest enemy than a fake friend." I should point out that these are VERY opposite to Buddhist philosophy. In your point of view, in that statement there are only those who are Enemies or Friends. In Buddhism, we have what we call the MIDDLE PATH! The Middle Path means that extremes do not work well, that most things in life are in the single vehicle, and they are a Middle path. So, We create our own suffering when we think of people as either Friends or Enemies. There are those who are known to us, but fall in the middle path. There is a reasonable amount of respect and fair treatment, but no great efforts to help or hurt the person. Unless otherwise needed, I approach life in the Middle path. Many years have gone by, and the person you know does not exist. The person I know, does not exist. Each moment that exists only does so for an instant. It is gone forever. Memories are intangible fragments and can cloud our lives. There are many dimensions to Buddhism. There are the 10 worlds, with the 6 lower worlds and 4 higher, noble worlds. There is the 4 noble truths I mentioned earlier: Suffering exists, The nature of suffering, The cessation of Suffering, and lastly, the path that leads to the cessation, the ending of suffering. There is the 3,000 lifetimes in a moment! The list goes on and on....... Based on my studies and teaching, it is important to be honest, it is important to be respectful, and it is important to chose the gentle path as apposed to the harsh path. If a person can say something to someone in a way which displays disrespect or cruelty or a way in which the compassion of the Buddha and the love of God and All the Bodisatvahs can be displayed, then it is best to do as His Holiness the Dalai Lama has suggested, to chose the most considerate path.
I had gone through some issues in the past, when I felt it was wrong for you to have not returned my electronic equipment to me: My midi drive, computer, and other items and ham radio antennas and such. There were other issues, too, regarding lies that you told me when we first met many years ago, and living conditions under which were not the most pleasant. It was a shame that Eric admitted to me that the only reason he let me sleep on his couch in the projects was because he needed to use my computer. He admitted that to me. That he was basically prostituting himself for the sake of using my computer. Eventually, he went inside the computer to try to learn what made it tick. When he did so, he messed it up, and it stopped working. I had only owned the computer a year at that point, and I had close to 2,000 dollars invested into that thing. I did not make an issue of it. I let it go I was disappointed to find out certain things that had taken place before I moved down there, that you did eventually admit to me, and in all honesty, I would not have moved had I known that. You admitted yourself, that the reason you did not tell me was because you know that I would not go if I had found out. You were correct. I hold strongly to certain believes and standards of behavior. For most of the time that I was in SB, I was unhappy because of the fact that trust had been broken, and I felt betrayed. l also recall that when you drove my new car with only 3,000 miles on it, you had a couple of mishaps which scrapped it and such. You needed a new car, and I let you have my new car for basically, simply taking over a few remaining payments. You got a 10,000 dollar car for new to nothing. I did what I could to not get mad and insist on you paying me for damages, but instead to make it to your advantage since you were not able to get to work, and it was important for you to have dependable transportation. When you burned your bridges in SB, and Norma turned on you, Falsely accusing you of things that were NOT true. Why she did that to you, I don't know, but I know you were innocent of it! Don't feel bad. When I completed my studies in Library Science and went to get my degree, part of it was proving that I had spent time helping in the Library, as you recall I did volunteer to help in the computer lab upstairs and I also helps with the stacks downstairs. Norma refused to confirm it, and she actually made disparaging remarks about my character and personality! What she didn't realize was that the head of the Library Information Science program at the college was the WRONG person to be spouting off such hateful comments. So, He realized that he was dealing with Bible-thumping hateful, judgmental woman. He took my word for it, and credited me for having completed the time working/volunteering in a library. A shame she hated us so much after ALL the programing and system configuration you and I did, mainly you! She showed no appreciation, and a great deal of contempt toward us. We cannot be held responsible for her life condition of ill feelings, and we do not have to accept it, welcome it, or take it upon ourselves as truth, particularly because it was not truth.
At this time, I'm preparing for a visit from my Master today. He has been here the last few days helping me prepare for my ordination as his a First Disciple Buddhist Priest. I have to get going because he's due to arrive soon. In closing, and I do say this with honesty and compassion: I feel that all things happen for a reason. My stroke was for a reason. It kept me from becoming involved in the secular business world. It brought me back to doing God's work, back to Spiritual work. By the way, in Buddhism, there is NO Discrimination against being Gay, Bi, Lesbian, Bisbian, or anything like that. Only if a monk FORCES himself on another monk is it wrong. It's actually documented that in many Buddhist organizations, some monks develop deep, loving, meaningful relationships with one another - members of the same sex. The Buddha has no issues with gay vs. straight as do some Christians. Most Catholics in the US are now in favor of Gay Marriage. This may be a good thing for those of that faith who which to marry (at some point in the future). As far as you and I go, as I mentioned earlier, each moment is lived, and it's gone. What was, was, and it exists no longer. I have let go of all my anger toward you, my shock at your mother saying that she would have sex with you to turn you straight, and all of that. I have forgiven your brother for trying to rape you, as you told me about that Terrible event. I'm so glad that someone came home so he had to stop it! I'm sorry for the trauma you had endured with parents who were alcoholics, as you related to me your childhood was really difficult at times. In Buddhism, we know that our lives are filled with Suffering. It's the way it is. We have to study and understand the Four Noble Truths and understand that it's not our fault, and to let go, to not set ourselves up by wanting things that can't be. It would be like if you were to say that you would not be happy unless you were completely HIV free. That's not possible, so, you would setup your own suffering yourself. If I was to insist that I have full perfect health, no heart problems, no cancer issues, no seizures, no breathing problems, and that unless I have all of these issues, I won't be happy...... I would be setting myself up for suffering.
Jul 29, 2012 11:19:47am
Tom Aiasicca
I was pleased to find that you are well and in the process of finding someone special in your life. I wanted to respond to you so that you would not feel I was ignoring you, as you pointed out, I am not on here very regularly. I had a stroke a while back, and I had been dealing with several surgical procedures regarding cancer, an operation to save my hearing, and also had to undergo an appendectomy. My cholesterol count is very high, and I use a machine to help keep me breathing, 2 times a day. It delivers steroids directly to my lungs. I'm also taking 3 medications for my heart and on a low dose of chemotherapy medication that helps keep the cancer from coming back, although I have a new one on the top of my head, and it also helps me with my osteoporosis. I was on a seizure medication for 15 years that had the side affect of causing osteopenia and osteoporosis, of which I have both conditions, osteopenia being a lesser form of osteoporosis. My bone density is now at 50 percent of what it should be, and I have had some serious problems with joint and connective tissue alignment. I have had injections for it, and I am on various pain killers and anti-inflammatory meds.
The reason you got a message that was "facts", and no text after it, was because my hand jerked and hit the "RETURN" key. I have occasional jerks due to the seizure activity. It's also prevented me from doing any interpreting, even though I completed my training, degrees, and so on. I am, however, in a wonderful mood! Why? Because I understand the 4 Noble Truths! Buddhism and the blessings of our universal God / creator, has given me the ability to come to terms with my life. The fact is that we need to understand and embrace the "Impermanence Of Life". What we look at as a table or chair made of wood today will be just dust in a few hundred years. We, if planted into a coffin in the ground, will become maggot food. This "WE" is only the physical shell. I am now in a Buddhist Priesthood. I even have a Buddhist Priest name that was given to me by my Master! I am going to be getting treated for my growth on my head, possibly have it removed, then stitched together, and after it's healed, then I complete my last month of training living in a S(h)anga / temple with the buddhist brothers/monks. Then I fly to Japan, my head is shaved ceremonially, I am dressed in my Priest robes, and I am ordained. I've been studying both Buddhism and Christianity simultaneously since around 1991. When I wrote to your parents and sent them Christmas cards with my best wishes and blessings, but I did not hear back, I respected that they were not interested in further communication or contact with me. I respected their wishes and have not bothered them since.
The reason you got a message that was "facts", and no text after it, was because my hand jerked and hit the "RETURN" key. I have occasional jerks due to the seizure activity. It's also prevented me from doing any interpreting, even though I completed my training, degrees, and so on. I am, however, in a wonderful mood! Why? Because I understand the 4 Noble Truths! Buddhism and the blessings of our universal God / creator, has given me the ability to come to terms with my life. The fact is that we need to understand and embrace the "Impermanence Of Life". What we look at as a table or chair made of wood today will be just dust in a few hundred years. We, if planted into a coffin in the ground, will become maggot food. This "WE" is only the physical shell. I am now in a Buddhist Priesthood. I even have a Buddhist Priest name that was given to me by my Master! I am going to be getting treated for my growth on my head, possibly have it removed, then stitched together, and after it's healed, then I complete my last month of training living in a S(h)anga / temple with the buddhist brothers/monks. Then I fly to Japan, my head is shaved ceremonially, I am dressed in my Priest robes, and I am ordained. I've been studying both Buddhism and Christianity simultaneously since around 1991. When I wrote to your parents and sent them Christmas cards with my best wishes and blessings, but I did not hear back, I respected that they were not interested in further communication or contact with me. I respected their wishes and have not bothered them since.
Jul 29, 2012 10:29:59am
James M Driskill
"Facts:" -- That is your reply? I will take this as an acknowledgement that you have read my messages to you.
Facts are also that I have a facebook note dated Sunday, March 22, 2009 at 5:22am -- You can call this "my mission work". I have not updated the list in my facebook note.... there are many more published works that I have passed by containing these words.
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Morality : Immortality : [ "go fix some weighty truth" ] [ "teach ignorance to see; or grief to smile" ] : Comments? Please!
by James Driskill on Sunday, March 22, 2009 at 5:22am ·
Go fix some weighty truth;
Chain down some passion: do some good;
Teach ignorance to see or grief to smile;
Correct thy friend; befriend thy greatest foe:
Be just in all things; make amends
For follies past, and, with warm heart,
Forgive, and be forgiven. Let work not words
Thy virtue prove. Go act as well as prate,
And then thy counsels will be strong,
Thy reprimands avail. —Anon.
THE province of the historian is to gather the threads of the past ere they I elude forever his grasp, and weave them into a harmonious web to which the "art preservative" may give immortality. Therefore he, who would rescue from fast-gathering oblivion the deeds of a community, and send them on to futurity in an imperishable record, should deliver a plain, unvarnished tale.
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Young, Edward, 1683-1765: NIGHT THOUGHTS ON LIFE, DEATH, AND IMMORTALITY: IN NINE NIGHTS
http://www.litgothic.com/Texts/young_night_thoughts.pdf
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The confessions of J. Lackington, late bookseller, at the Temple of the Muses, in a series of letters to a friend;
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Night thoughts on life, death, and immortality - Google Books Result
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Poems Divine and Moral: Many of Them Now First Published - Google Books Result
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Select Works of the British Poets - Google Books Result
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Paradise Lost: A Poem in Twelve Books - Google Books Result
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A voice from the cloud of witnesses: letters memorial of the late mrs. Martin of Whitefield Chapel - Google Books Result
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THE SYMPATHY OF CHRIST by Octavius Winslow
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THE SYMPATHY OF CHRIST by Octavius Winslow
The Disinterestedness of Christ's Sympathy
"For even Christ did not please Himself." Romans 15:3
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Chain down some passion ; do some generous good; Teach ignorance to see, or grief to'smile." Then shall the benedictions of the widow; the fatherless, ...
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St. Dunstan’s Red and White MY WOODEN It It
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Archive:NEHGR, Volume 37 - WRG
Teach ignorance to see, or grief to smile." The final disposition of his great fortune to the grand purposes of education plainly proves not only this, ...
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United Communities of Spirit
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"I would rather have an honest enemy than a fake friend"
Facts are also that I have a facebook note dated Sunday, March 22, 2009 at 5:22am -- You can call this "my mission work". I have not updated the list in my facebook note.... there are many more published works that I have passed by containing these words.
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Morality : Immortality : [ "go fix some weighty truth" ] [ "teach ignorance to see; or grief to smile" ] : Comments? Please!
by James Driskill on Sunday, March 22, 2009 at 5:22am ·
Go fix some weighty truth;
Chain down some passion: do some good;
Teach ignorance to see or grief to smile;
Correct thy friend; befriend thy greatest foe:
Be just in all things; make amends
For follies past, and, with warm heart,
Forgive, and be forgiven. Let work not words
Thy virtue prove. Go act as well as prate,
And then thy counsels will be strong,
Thy reprimands avail. —Anon.
THE province of the historian is to gather the threads of the past ere they I elude forever his grasp, and weave them into a harmonious web to which the "art preservative" may give immortality. Therefore he, who would rescue from fast-gathering oblivion the deeds of a community, and send them on to futurity in an imperishable record, should deliver a plain, unvarnished tale.
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Google [ "go fix some weighty truth" ]
Google [ "teach ignorance to see; or grief to smile" ]
A list of found matches [ incomplete]:
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::::: 1800 - 1809 :::::
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Young, Edward, 1683-1765: NIGHT THOUGHTS ON LIFE, DEATH, AND IMMORTALITY: IN NINE NIGHTS
http://www.litgothic.com/Texts/young_night_thoughts.pdf
Full text of "The complaint : or, Night thoughts on life, death ...
http://www.archive.org/stream/thecomplaintorni00youniala/thecomplaintorni00youniala_djvu.txt
Full text of "The works of the British poets; including the most ...
http://www.archive.org/stream/worksofbritishpo17park/worksofbritishpo17park_djvu.txt
Full text of "Night thoughts. With life, critical dissertation ...
http://www.archive.org/stream/nightthoughtswit00younuoft/nightthoughtswit00younuoft_djvu.txt
Full text of "Poetical works. With a memoir by John Mitford"
http://www.archive.org/stream/poeticalworkswit01younuoft/poeticalworkswit01younuoft_djvu.txt
Full text of "Essays, complete. Collected and arr., with an introd ...
http://www.archive.org/stream/essayscompleteco00eliouoft/essayscompleteco00eliouoft_djvu.txt
Full text of "Poetical works. With life"
http://www.archive.org/stream/poeticalworkswit00younuoft/poeticalworkswit00younuoft_djvu.txt
Full text of "Life of William Blake, with selections from his ...
http://www.archive.org/stream/lifeofwilliambla02gilc/lifeofwilliambla02gilc_djvu.txt
Full text of "Works"
http://www.archive.org/stream/workseliot10eliouoft/workseliot10eliouoft_djvu.txt
Full text of "Elegant epistles, being a copious collection of ...
http://www.archive.org/stream/1809elegantepist01londuoft/1809elegantepist01londuoft_djvu.txt
Full text of "History of the counties of McKean, Elk and Forest ...
http://www.archive.org/stream/historyofcountie00lees/historyofcountie00lees_djvu.tx
History of the Counties of McKean, Elk and Forest, Pennsylvania ... - Google Books Result
by M A Leeson, J.H. Beers & Co - 1800 - McKean County (Pa.)
http://books.google.com/books?id=bx4VAAAAYAAJ
The confessions of J. Lackington, late bookseller, at the Temple of the Muses, in a series of letters to a friend;
by Richard Edward, CO. TEMPLE OF THE MUSES - 1804.
http://www.archive.org/stream/confessionsofjla00lackrich/confessionsofjla00lackrich_djvu.txt
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Night thoughts on life, death, and immortality - Google Books Result
by Edward Young - 1818 - 301 pages
http://books.google.com/books?id=UziSH-ZTS9MC
The European Magazine, and London Review - Google Books Result
by Philological Society (Great Britain) - 1818
http://books.google.com/books?id=9uoRAAAAYAAJ
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Poems Divine and Moral: Many of Them Now First Published - Google Books Result
by John Bowdler - 1821 - Religious poetry - 468 pages
http://books.google.com/books?id=k0B2itLvoBgC
Select Works of the British Poets - Google Books Result
by John Aikin - 1826 - 807 pages
http://books.google.com/books?id=me8tAAAAYAAJ
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The Poetical Works of Milton, Young, Gray, Beattie, and Collins - Google Books Result
by John Milton, Edward Young, Thomas Gray, James ... - 1836 - English poetry
http://books.google.com/books?id=_EUgAAAAMAAJ
The Cynosure: Being Select Passages from the Most Distinguished ... - Google Books Result
by Nicholas Harris Nicolas - 1837 - Quotations - 257 pages
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Paradise Lost: A Poem in Twelve Books - Google Books Result
by John Milton - 1850 - 294 pages
http://books.google.com/books?id=oiAWAAAAYAAJ
A voice from the cloud of witnesses: letters memorial of the late mrs. Martin of Whitefield Chapel - Google Books Result
by David Martin - 1850
http://books.google.com/books?id=tpwHAAAAQAAJ
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Moral and Religious Quotations from the Poets: Topically Arranged, ... - Google Books Result
by William Rice - 1861 - Quotations, English - 338 pages
http://books.google.com/books?id=AX6k6JbEqqEC
Many thoughts of many minds. Compiled by H. Southgate - Google Books Result
by Henry Southgate - 1862
http://books.google.com/books?id=50ACAAAAQAAJ
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The New England Historical and Genealogical Register - Google Books Result
by Henry Fitz-Gilbert Waters, New England ... - 1883 - New England
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Treasury of wisdom, wit and humor, odd comparisons and proverbs: ... - Google Books Result
1891 - Quotations, English - 527 pages
http://books.google.com/books?id=784OAAAAMAAJ
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The Works of George Eliot - Google Books Result
by George Eliot, John Walter Cross, Mathilde Blind - 1900
http://books.google.com/books?id=LKKmm5Lv7_8C
Poems, essays, and Leaves from a note book - Google Books Result
by George Eliot, Esther Wood - 1904 - English literature - 561 pages
http://books.google.com/books?id=SXQeAAAAMAAJ
THE SYMPATHY OF CHRIST by Octavius Winslow
http://www.davidcox.com.mx/library/W/Winslow,%20Octavius%20-%20The%20Sympathy%20of%20Christ%20(b).pdf
THE SYMPATHY OF CHRIST by Octavius Winslow
The Disinterestedness of Christ's Sympathy
"For even Christ did not please Himself." Romans 15:3
http://www.gracegems.org/WINSLOW/The%20Disinterestedness%20of%20Christ%27s%20Sympathy.htm
Full text of "The sympathy of Christ with man [microform] : its ...
Chain down some passion ; do some generous good; Teach ignorance to see, or grief to'smile." Then shall the benedictions of the widow; the fatherless, ...
http://www.archive.org/stream/MN41388ucmf_3/MN41388ucmf_3_djvu.txt
St. Dunstan’s Red and White MY WOODEN It It
http://vre.upei.ca/uasc/fedora/repository/vre:rw-batch2-1859/OBJ/12_soph_frosh_corner_-_my_wooden_box_p_18-19.pdf
Archive:NEHGR, Volume 37 - WRG
Teach ignorance to see, or grief to smile." The final disposition of his great fortune to the grand purposes of education plainly proves not only this, ...
http://wiki.whitneygen.org/wrg/index.php/Archive:NEHGR,_Volume_37
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James' Site - Can you Help - UNLAWFUL EVICTION CASE DEFENDANT ...
Go fix some weighty truth; Chain down some passion; do some good; Teach ignorance to see or grief to smile; Correct thy friend; befriend thy greatest foe; ...
http://inthemindway.multiply.com/photos/album/4
GetTheJob.com - Profile / InTheMindway
Go fix some weighty truth; Chain down some passion; do some good; Teach ignorance to see or grief to smile; Correct thy friend; befriend thy greatest foe; ...
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Browse Members | SpokenWord.org
I aspire to live up to these words: Go fix some weighty truth; Chain down some passion; do some good; Teach ignorance to see or grief to smile; ...
http://www.spokenword.org/memberBrowser?page=memberBrowser&offset=0&a=D
United Communities of Spirit
"Teach Ignorance To See, Or Grief To Smile" has been in my covenant beliefs for many years or even one might say a my destiny of my life work since birth. ...
http://origin.org/UCS/message.cfm?messageid=36867
Urban Dictionary: cybermark
The phrase "Teach Ignorance To See; or Grief To Smile" is an an observed expressed thought that historically appears in the writings and documents of many ...
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=cybermark
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"I would rather have an honest enemy than a fake friend"
Jul 29, 2012 10:03:56am
Tom Aiasicca
Facts:
Jul 29, 2012 9:17:31am
James M Driskill
btw, it was KQED [TV], not KPFA [Radio], You are much better at keeping calls signs straight in you head, I am sure.
Jul 29, 2012 8:59:19am
James M Driskill
Tom,
Please read my first message sent today before reading here, thank you.
In response to your profile details : Oppression Is Unacceptable, I am bringing these words to you from Marlon Riggs of Oakland CA. These words are stored at Colorado.edu. I have only provided an excerpt here for an introduction as to how these words apply to your political view showing on your profile. Thank you for linking to and reading the full essay if you have not already.
INTRODUCTION TO STANDARDS: V5N1
by Marlon Riggs
It's no longer enough, if it ever was, to critique interlocking systems of oppression without offering affirming alternatives of how society should and can reconstitute itself. As we move into the inevitably more demanding multilingual, multicultural environment--both nationally and globally--of the next [this] century, our greatest task will be an inversion of the commonly assumed equivalence between difference and disunity. We must re-write this equation, demonstrating again and again that unity does not require unanimity, that unity--that is, a sense of social cohesion, of community--can and does derive from the expression, comprehension, and active nurturing (and not merely tolerance or fetishization) of difference.
This is the new standard of civilized life that now demands our urgent labor, a new world order, if you will, that subverts traditional conceptions of social order: a standard which in effect subverts the meaning of the word "standard" itself. For the new order must be comprised of multiple standards: shifting, open-ended, dynamically transforming, so as to engender ways of thinking and living that privilege no one set of cultural differences over another but affirm virtue in all.
MARLON T. RIGGS was a producer, director, and writer, who graduated with honors from Harvard in 1978, and received the MA from UC Berkeley, where he later taught Documentary Film in the Graduate School of Journalism. His films include Tongues Untied, the acclaimed account of Black gay male life; and Ethnic Notions, for which he was awarded the Emmy. Mr. Riggs' work has been published in the anthology Brother to Brother, as well as in arts and literary magazines, including High Performance, Black American Literature Forum, and Art Journal. A media activist, he testified before the U.S. Senate, and wrote extensively on the issue of censorship. Mr. Riggs was also on the policy committee of the national PBS, and served on various other panels, including the National Endowment for the Arts.
--------
Tom,
Do you remember watching "Tongues Untied" on PBS KPFA ?
It aired at the time we were together and since we were most likely in your room at Pearl Street, we watched this film mentioned in this essay together.
http://www.colorado.edu/journals/standards/V5N1/marlonintro.html
Please read my first message sent today before reading here, thank you.
In response to your profile details : Oppression Is Unacceptable, I am bringing these words to you from Marlon Riggs of Oakland CA. These words are stored at Colorado.edu. I have only provided an excerpt here for an introduction as to how these words apply to your political view showing on your profile. Thank you for linking to and reading the full essay if you have not already.
INTRODUCTION TO STANDARDS: V5N1
by Marlon Riggs
It's no longer enough, if it ever was, to critique interlocking systems of oppression without offering affirming alternatives of how society should and can reconstitute itself. As we move into the inevitably more demanding multilingual, multicultural environment--both nationally and globally--of the next [this] century, our greatest task will be an inversion of the commonly assumed equivalence between difference and disunity. We must re-write this equation, demonstrating again and again that unity does not require unanimity, that unity--that is, a sense of social cohesion, of community--can and does derive from the expression, comprehension, and active nurturing (and not merely tolerance or fetishization) of difference.
This is the new standard of civilized life that now demands our urgent labor, a new world order, if you will, that subverts traditional conceptions of social order: a standard which in effect subverts the meaning of the word "standard" itself. For the new order must be comprised of multiple standards: shifting, open-ended, dynamically transforming, so as to engender ways of thinking and living that privilege no one set of cultural differences over another but affirm virtue in all.
MARLON T. RIGGS was a producer, director, and writer, who graduated with honors from Harvard in 1978, and received the MA from UC Berkeley, where he later taught Documentary Film in the Graduate School of Journalism. His films include Tongues Untied, the acclaimed account of Black gay male life; and Ethnic Notions, for which he was awarded the Emmy. Mr. Riggs' work has been published in the anthology Brother to Brother, as well as in arts and literary magazines, including High Performance, Black American Literature Forum, and Art Journal. A media activist, he testified before the U.S. Senate, and wrote extensively on the issue of censorship. Mr. Riggs was also on the policy committee of the national PBS, and served on various other panels, including the National Endowment for the Arts.
--------
Tom,
Do you remember watching "Tongues Untied" on PBS KPFA ?
It aired at the time we were together and since we were most likely in your room at Pearl Street, we watched this film mentioned in this essay together.
http://www.colorado.edu/journals/standards/V5N1/marlonintro.html
Jul 29, 2012 3:33:02am
James M Driskill
Hi Tom.
Although when I first found your facebook profile a while ago on facebook and what you said of yourself then and what seems to be updated now and the fact that you apparently are not really an active facebook member, I did not find it necessary to reconnect to an old friend. Even today according to your timeline, you are not very active here but I do see that you modified your "about me" profile and are in some way calling for reuniting to your family [ and perhaps your past ] friends and as we were man on man lovers. As you know, I consider you my first man on lover and I have great respect for you and great love for the shared time we had back then. I am in no way placing judgements or other factors in this statement I am about to make, You can't change your name and escape the reality of our history.
Of which that history includes the fact that if it was not for the Johnath's telecommunications tool of The Oakland City Conference we would have never met.
Along with meeting Charles Galvin "Chicken Hawk" Jr., and Carlos that first time I visited in San Francisco and then all of the facts that lead you to come stay with my family in San Bernardino, CA at 3260 Grande Vista 92405.... There again is no way to escape that history as true.
You also know me to be Wiccan and I wonder if I also am placed into your view of spirituality and "refuse to point the finger..." as you call it.
If you were to view my current religion status on my facebook profile here, it reflects Unitarian universalist, which is what you are also trying to say with your statements made as well. These are SHARED VALUES that we both hold and is a part of why we were in love with each other.
I am not on here to debate religion with you, although I thought it necessary to precede with it here anyway.
I now live in Cheyenne Wy. And to the events that have happened to me and the fact that I have met a possible new boyfriend here most recently, you have come up in both discussion and in my email to him. All of it has been a positive reflection upon you, even though when we separated the last time we actually saw each other, you did not hold your breath with what you thought and related to me of judgement for me as a homosexual. And with your "Praise The Lord" every three sentences, I know where this was coming from, and dismissed it to hopefully you would find your way to a good path for you.
As you know, and I don't remember what year it was, I was still in Oakland, a number got popped into my brain. From right now 2012 I write, I can't remember it, but I could if I focused on it a bit. It does not matter. It was shortly after Mother's Day that year. The number that popped was your mother's phone number. I just had to call it. She had told me that you were unavailable to be contacted and that you did not even call her for Mother's day. Again this given here not to put a judgement on you but to call into reference the truth. I told her that the number came into my mind and called. She told me she would relay the message to you when you contacted her back.
I received that call from you a couple of months later and is the last time we spoke. I expressed to you in that call that I still had great honor and respect for you and that I still "loved you" in the way that holds honor for the past that we actually shared. Nothing has changed to this day, I am placing all of this into view so that you know I am being most humble with you to know the truth and it is me that must reflect truth to the world as what is my mission.
If you want to acknowledge me as requesting a friend link here in facebook as an initiation to relink us as friends forever -- I would appreciate it. I am not going to make that request of you, and be denied.
There is a foundation I hold true to myself onto shared values that I am a little bit back from our human time history.
Art thou dejected?
Is thy mind o'ercast?
Amid her fair ones, thou the fairest choose,
To Chase Thy Gloom -
"Go Fix Some Weighty Truth;
Chain down some passion;
Do some generous good;
Teach ignorance to see,
or grief to smile;
Correct thy friend,
befriend thy greatest foe;
Be just in all things;
Make amends for follies past,
and with warm heart forgive and be forgiven;
Let work not words thy virtue prove;
Go act as well as prate,
and then thy counsels will be strong.
Thy Reprimands Avail."
These have no dogmas associated with any individual religion.
They are proudly displayed in a gay.com profile under the profile [ JaredJettison ] and is the only profile I have on gay.com.
The name of Jared Jettison has its bearing and purpose and in no way is an attempt to hide my real name James Driskill identity.
Of me, if you had been following me for these many years if you cared, there are posts out there showing some real bad events that I have had to carry myself through.
All in an effort to "Fix Some Weighty Truth" in their efforts to discredit me and to dis-empower me from what I know I could do with my domainspace(s) to change the world from evils to peace.
[ @inthemindway.org ]
In The Mindway
It's the pathway the mind travels that is so sacred.
We are all sharing together so free without hatred.
There are no limits to stop us so no reason to quit.
The universe of happiness & it's discovery is out there;
Let's get on it it's our trip.
-----
You Remember Blythe, he is on facebook too, [ Blythe Rayford Oakland ]. He is in my friend list here on facebook.
He is a Buddhist practicing daily chants all though the time we were also live in boyfriends/lovers. It was he and I that came up with this ideal one day in a discussions that we were having. That day I placed these words into a notepad document and hit save. The create file is used to mark the time this occurred.
"The pathway that the mind travels..."
We know it exists today because so many of us have personally experience it and speak about it with face to face language. We have it, but it has an unusual characteristic that provides no means of a historical chronicle should it decay to ruins. It is silent to our ears; no audio recording can exist. It is invisable to our eyes; no photographs can be taken. Can't touch it, no smell or taste. It does exist and what exists around our world usually follows either natural effects of time decay and withering away by accidental or hostile acts of destruction. Should it disappear it will be lost.
- An Individual Human Thought-
Monday, October 14th, 1996 07:48PM PT
The Birth of "In The Mindway"
-----
What both of these ideals that I have placed here to you this day in July 2012, in a way is it my mission to not have human history lost, only by one to one can be done to establish full complete worldwide peace.
You can find me referenced on the WikiWorld.com homepage:
InTheMindway, thinking in memetic life without the brain buster terms.
And I know you have done your dabbing into information sciences memetics.... You know that we have some of these interests in common too.
All of what I have placed to the record of human time history,
It is about being GRUW UP to one another now and future more.
There are a couple of varieties what this means:
[G]reat [R]easons [U]rbans [W]ill [U]nite [P]eace
but this one I think should be best used between you and I, grammatically incorrect, it does not matter.
[G]reat [R]easons [U]s [W]ill [U]nite [P]eace
@GRUW UP Complete Worldwide Peace
The Real Up Human facts are Tom that you lived in the house that is the current address registered to @GRUWUP.NET
Registrant:
In The Mindway
3260 Grande Vista
San Bernardino, CA 92405
US
Registrar: Domain.com
Domain Name: GRUWUP.NET
Created on: 16-JUL-06
Expires on: 16-JUL-13
Last Updated on: 20-JUL-11
Administrative, Technical Contact:
Driskill, James jmdriskill@post.com
In The Mindway
3260 Grande Vista
San Bernardino, CA 92405
US
(909) 882-####
(909) 882-####
You may call my parents number, which is still the same,
909-882-8759. I am sure they would be glad to hear
from you no matter what. My father has had a recent
encounter with Prostate Cancer and then followed
by Kidney Cancer in which he had one of his Kidneys
Removed. So there is some history there of you and
my family that perhaps you could honor by calling. You
don't have to, just a suggestion of mine here that
matches to your "about me" profile. I would say
that you were FAMILY in and through the period
that you stayed there more than a full year.
Do you remember Eric Maier ? I think you could.
He happened to have been the registrant of DeadHead.Org
He is also the author and walker that is documented at the following url:
A Long Walk Home 2004
http://alongwalkhome.us/
I am in the process of having to make a PUBLIC WALK from Oakland To San Bernardino to the address of @GRUWUP.NETG as a protest of past events from 2005, 2006 and protest into the events as well of San Diego, CA.
I am not sure what I am labeling it or where it is going to be documented on the web, as similarly to Eric's Walk.
To Finalize here, on urbandictionary there is a definition of mine that appears under Humans. It is not first, but is in no way last. It appears currently as Definition 12.
12. Humans 35 up, 9 down
There are two adversary forms of humans which are the Fucked Up Human and the Real Up Human. To scale from one or the other, all humans fall somewhere in line by every action that a human makes -- even each and every last keystroke being done.
Well be real up ya all humans... ok?
by In the Mindway May 1, 2005
----
The date of this reflects radio call --
- MayDay : Mayday : Mayday
if you have not already placed that into reference.
No matter what happens on both sides of our lives,
thank you for being a positive influence in my life and I respect all that I know we shared greatly.
Mr James M. Driskill
916 Hot Springs Ave, Apt B
Cheyenne WY 82001
(307) 214-0493
@REALUPHUMAN.NET : @GRUWUP.NET : @MUCKEDUPHUMAN.NET
and if you need to ask,
@FUCKEDUPHUMAN.NET
Which makes me one most unique cyber identities to
ever exist on the planet. I know it true.
You do know me --- not as crazy but as a gentleman.
I am basically the same person I was then as now.
What changes you have made in your life should
honor us not put us or me down in any way.
I hope you see that is the case and reply and
initiate a friend request of me. Thank you.
Although when I first found your facebook profile a while ago on facebook and what you said of yourself then and what seems to be updated now and the fact that you apparently are not really an active facebook member, I did not find it necessary to reconnect to an old friend. Even today according to your timeline, you are not very active here but I do see that you modified your "about me" profile and are in some way calling for reuniting to your family [ and perhaps your past ] friends and as we were man on man lovers. As you know, I consider you my first man on lover and I have great respect for you and great love for the shared time we had back then. I am in no way placing judgements or other factors in this statement I am about to make, You can't change your name and escape the reality of our history.
Of which that history includes the fact that if it was not for the Johnath's telecommunications tool of The Oakland City Conference we would have never met.
Along with meeting Charles Galvin "Chicken Hawk" Jr., and Carlos that first time I visited in San Francisco and then all of the facts that lead you to come stay with my family in San Bernardino, CA at 3260 Grande Vista 92405.... There again is no way to escape that history as true.
You also know me to be Wiccan and I wonder if I also am placed into your view of spirituality and "refuse to point the finger..." as you call it.
If you were to view my current religion status on my facebook profile here, it reflects Unitarian universalist, which is what you are also trying to say with your statements made as well. These are SHARED VALUES that we both hold and is a part of why we were in love with each other.
I am not on here to debate religion with you, although I thought it necessary to precede with it here anyway.
I now live in Cheyenne Wy. And to the events that have happened to me and the fact that I have met a possible new boyfriend here most recently, you have come up in both discussion and in my email to him. All of it has been a positive reflection upon you, even though when we separated the last time we actually saw each other, you did not hold your breath with what you thought and related to me of judgement for me as a homosexual. And with your "Praise The Lord" every three sentences, I know where this was coming from, and dismissed it to hopefully you would find your way to a good path for you.
As you know, and I don't remember what year it was, I was still in Oakland, a number got popped into my brain. From right now 2012 I write, I can't remember it, but I could if I focused on it a bit. It does not matter. It was shortly after Mother's Day that year. The number that popped was your mother's phone number. I just had to call it. She had told me that you were unavailable to be contacted and that you did not even call her for Mother's day. Again this given here not to put a judgement on you but to call into reference the truth. I told her that the number came into my mind and called. She told me she would relay the message to you when you contacted her back.
I received that call from you a couple of months later and is the last time we spoke. I expressed to you in that call that I still had great honor and respect for you and that I still "loved you" in the way that holds honor for the past that we actually shared. Nothing has changed to this day, I am placing all of this into view so that you know I am being most humble with you to know the truth and it is me that must reflect truth to the world as what is my mission.
If you want to acknowledge me as requesting a friend link here in facebook as an initiation to relink us as friends forever -- I would appreciate it. I am not going to make that request of you, and be denied.
There is a foundation I hold true to myself onto shared values that I am a little bit back from our human time history.
Art thou dejected?
Is thy mind o'ercast?
Amid her fair ones, thou the fairest choose,
To Chase Thy Gloom -
"Go Fix Some Weighty Truth;
Chain down some passion;
Do some generous good;
Teach ignorance to see,
or grief to smile;
Correct thy friend,
befriend thy greatest foe;
Be just in all things;
Make amends for follies past,
and with warm heart forgive and be forgiven;
Let work not words thy virtue prove;
Go act as well as prate,
and then thy counsels will be strong.
Thy Reprimands Avail."
These have no dogmas associated with any individual religion.
They are proudly displayed in a gay.com profile under the profile [ JaredJettison ] and is the only profile I have on gay.com.
The name of Jared Jettison has its bearing and purpose and in no way is an attempt to hide my real name James Driskill identity.
Of me, if you had been following me for these many years if you cared, there are posts out there showing some real bad events that I have had to carry myself through.
All in an effort to "Fix Some Weighty Truth" in their efforts to discredit me and to dis-empower me from what I know I could do with my domainspace(s) to change the world from evils to peace.
[ @inthemindway.org ]
In The Mindway
It's the pathway the mind travels that is so sacred.
We are all sharing together so free without hatred.
There are no limits to stop us so no reason to quit.
The universe of happiness & it's discovery is out there;
Let's get on it it's our trip.
-----
You Remember Blythe, he is on facebook too, [ Blythe Rayford Oakland ]. He is in my friend list here on facebook.
He is a Buddhist practicing daily chants all though the time we were also live in boyfriends/lovers. It was he and I that came up with this ideal one day in a discussions that we were having. That day I placed these words into a notepad document and hit save. The create file is used to mark the time this occurred.
"The pathway that the mind travels..."
We know it exists today because so many of us have personally experience it and speak about it with face to face language. We have it, but it has an unusual characteristic that provides no means of a historical chronicle should it decay to ruins. It is silent to our ears; no audio recording can exist. It is invisable to our eyes; no photographs can be taken. Can't touch it, no smell or taste. It does exist and what exists around our world usually follows either natural effects of time decay and withering away by accidental or hostile acts of destruction. Should it disappear it will be lost.
- An Individual Human Thought-
Monday, October 14th, 1996 07:48PM PT
The Birth of "In The Mindway"
-----
What both of these ideals that I have placed here to you this day in July 2012, in a way is it my mission to not have human history lost, only by one to one can be done to establish full complete worldwide peace.
You can find me referenced on the WikiWorld.com homepage:
InTheMindway, thinking in memetic life without the brain buster terms.
And I know you have done your dabbing into information sciences memetics.... You know that we have some of these interests in common too.
All of what I have placed to the record of human time history,
It is about being GRUW UP to one another now and future more.
There are a couple of varieties what this means:
[G]reat [R]easons [U]rbans [W]ill [U]nite [P]eace
but this one I think should be best used between you and I, grammatically incorrect, it does not matter.
[G]reat [R]easons [U]s [W]ill [U]nite [P]eace
@GRUW UP Complete Worldwide Peace
The Real Up Human facts are Tom that you lived in the house that is the current address registered to @GRUWUP.NET
Registrant:
In The Mindway
3260 Grande Vista
San Bernardino, CA 92405
US
Registrar: Domain.com
Domain Name: GRUWUP.NET
Created on: 16-JUL-06
Expires on: 16-JUL-13
Last Updated on: 20-JUL-11
Administrative, Technical Contact:
Driskill, James jmdriskill@post.com
In The Mindway
3260 Grande Vista
San Bernardino, CA 92405
US
(909) 882-####
(909) 882-####
You may call my parents number, which is still the same,
909-882-8759. I am sure they would be glad to hear
from you no matter what. My father has had a recent
encounter with Prostate Cancer and then followed
by Kidney Cancer in which he had one of his Kidneys
Removed. So there is some history there of you and
my family that perhaps you could honor by calling. You
don't have to, just a suggestion of mine here that
matches to your "about me" profile. I would say
that you were FAMILY in and through the period
that you stayed there more than a full year.
Do you remember Eric Maier ? I think you could.
He happened to have been the registrant of DeadHead.Org
He is also the author and walker that is documented at the following url:
A Long Walk Home 2004
http://alongwalkhome.us/
I am in the process of having to make a PUBLIC WALK from Oakland To San Bernardino to the address of @GRUWUP.NETG as a protest of past events from 2005, 2006 and protest into the events as well of San Diego, CA.
I am not sure what I am labeling it or where it is going to be documented on the web, as similarly to Eric's Walk.
To Finalize here, on urbandictionary there is a definition of mine that appears under Humans. It is not first, but is in no way last. It appears currently as Definition 12.
12. Humans 35 up, 9 down
There are two adversary forms of humans which are the Fucked Up Human and the Real Up Human. To scale from one or the other, all humans fall somewhere in line by every action that a human makes -- even each and every last keystroke being done.
Well be real up ya all humans... ok?
by In the Mindway May 1, 2005
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The date of this reflects radio call --
- MayDay : Mayday : Mayday
if you have not already placed that into reference.
No matter what happens on both sides of our lives,
thank you for being a positive influence in my life and I respect all that I know we shared greatly.
Mr James M. Driskill
916 Hot Springs Ave, Apt B
Cheyenne WY 82001
(307) 214-0493
@REALUPHUMAN.NET : @GRUWUP.NET : @MUCKEDUPHUMAN.NET
and if you need to ask,
@FUCKEDUPHUMAN.NET
Which makes me one most unique cyber identities to
ever exist on the planet. I know it true.
You do know me --- not as crazy but as a gentleman.
I am basically the same person I was then as now.
What changes you have made in your life should
honor us not put us or me down in any way.
I hope you see that is the case and reply and
initiate a friend request of me. Thank you.
Jul 28, 2012 10:36:01pm